Friday, November 19, 2021

We All Are Cats

Driving with my wife. 

She almost always does most the talking, but I got to telling something philosophical East vs West myth idea so it was me for a change till I sensed I was losing her and stopped to ask if she’s understood anything I was saying. 


“No, but I can listen” 

She says with a laugh


“This is serious! It’s Eastern mythology, should know it. Eastern!  You know… Buddhism?” 


I know it.”  she says


“Okay, What’s the first of the Four Noble Truths?


…;.

“We all are cats”


What?!

It’s Suffering dang it! All life is suffering!

You’re Japanese. We’re in Japan! You can’t turn around without bumping into something buddha here, you should know this!”


“No. It’s we all are cats.” 

Now giggling to herself

“It’s nice ne”


I know she does this on purpose, and I know she knows it drives me crazy. 

Why it makes me even more crazy for her will forever remain a mystery though. 

A total freak’n mystery.


That was this morning.

She's forgotten all about it by now I'm sure, whereas I'll likely lie awake tonight wondering.... 


Why cats?!! 



Saturday, November 13, 2021

It's Something

There's a Zen koan that states: "If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him."

In Luke 14:26 we read: "If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, 

wife and children, brothers and sisters and yes, even their own life, they cannot be my disciple"


I didn't learn of the former until fifteen or so years ago. The latter I've known since my Sunday school days of 

nearly a half century ago, but I always brushed over it because... Sheesh!


So that's bunk, clearly a mistake that's got nothing to do with praying for prosperity and getting it from God. 


Fast forward to today. The latter is one of my favorite versus in the Bible. And the former? If I meet the Buddha he's toast! I still study his teachings right alongside those of Christ and value them both highly, but I ain't about to make an idol out of either one of them.  The apostle Paul said it's no longer I that live but the Christ lives through me. In the Thomas Gospel Jesus said whoever drinks from my mouth becomes as I am and I become he. The game's rigged. We're all it. or It with a capitol I. Or Something!


The rest is a reworked published revered to draft republished take on it all...  


Jesus walked on water.  The Buddha walked on water some 500 years earlier. They both entered the world via virgin birth. Jesus was wrapped in swaddling clothes. The Buddha immediately walked and a lotus blossomed everywhere he stepped. Both the Buddha and Jesus went beyond the religious teachers of their day. Jesus was tempted by Satan; the Buddha by Mara. The number of temptations each faced was three. The Buddha reached enlightenment while sitting under the Bodhi Tree.  Christ's path to salvation leads through the Cross. These are the two ways back into the Garden--to eternal life. The cherubim are guarding the East gate of the Garden in the Biblical tale. The Buddha was facing East when he reached enlightenment. The sun rises in the East. Turn your face towards the light! 


The cross was referred to as the Holy Rood in the Middle Ages. The legend was built up in, around and through the Old Testament. It was read and told widely amongst Christians of the time.  A brief account is Adam sent his son Seth back to the Garden of Eden to get an elixir that would render him immortal. Seth got as far as the gate but the cherubim wouldn't allow him entry. They did, however, give him  a seed from the tree of eternal life. Upon finding his father dead on his return Seth placed the seed under Adam's tongue and buried him at Golgotha. The tree that grew from the seed was cut down and found its way into many tales before finally becoming the cross on which Christ was crucified right back there at Golgotha--right over Adam's skull!  Thus Christ's blood dripping down onto the skull baptized the first man and laid the path for all the rest of us to find eternal life through him.


The cross and the bodhi tree are the same tree--the world tree that's appeared in myths predating each tale by thousands of years--but more on that later. 


As for the Garden, Thomas Aquinas, St. Augustine and other Christian theologians had differing views about it. Some believed it was merely a spiritual place, others a geographical location, and still more a mixture of the two. Dante's Devine Comedy had influenced thought greatly by the time Columbus set sail. Dante wrote that when Satan was cast out of heaven he hit the earth so hard that a huge fiery pit was formed on one end of the earth and the displaced earth pushed up a mountain on the other end. Satan was lodged in the middle of the earth of course since everyone knew that's where hell was. The mountain that was formed on the other end of the earth was purgatory, with paradise at its summit. Paradise remained the Biblical Garden with its four rivers and all, so when Columbus saw all the fresh water pouring into the sea from the Orinoco river he wrote that he found paradise.  He believed he had found Eden. 


We know now that he didn't of course, and even if he had the cherubim wouldn't have allowed him or any of the rest of us back into the Garden. Christ on the cross is the only way back everlasting paradise in that tradition. As for the Buddhist approach, there are threatening threshold guardians in that tradition as well, but the Buddha essentially says don't mind them, the way is open come on in. Since living in the East I can confirm this much is true. I see the threshold guardians all the time here. They may be in the from of Nio (human-like) at the sides of a Buddhist temple gate or Koma inu (Lion dogs) at the entrance to Shinto shrines, but make no mistake, these and the cherubim are one in the same. While threshold guardian symbols have varied over the millennia and regions the motif, like that of the tree, appears in myths dating back many thousands of years before the lives of Christ or the Buddha or even the Biblical account of the Garden. No matter the tradition, however, they are symbols of that which is inside of us.  Fear and desire.  Let go of all desire and fear and you can walk right past them and reenter the realm of eternal life. 


Fear and Desire. The third temptation of the Buddha was social duty. Thou Shalt! Do what your told. Believe what you're supposed to believe, or at least lie and say you believe it!  


“In all traditional systems, whether of the Orient or of the Occident, the authorized mythological forms are presented in its to which the individual is expected to respond with an experience of commitment and belief. But suppose he fails to do so? Suppose the entire inheritance of mythological, theological, and philosophical forms fails to wake in him any authentic response of this kind? ?How then is he to behave? The normal way is to fake it, to feel oneself to be inadequate, to pretend to believe, to strive to believe, and to live, in the imitation of others, an inauthentic life. The authentic creative way, on the other hand, which I would term the way of art as opposed to religion, is, rather, to reverse this authoritative order. 


As in the novels of [James] Joyce, so in those of [Thomas] Mann, the key to the progression lies in the stress on what is inward….In the words of Joyce’s hero: “When the soul of a man is born in this country there are nets flung at it to hold it back from flight. You talk to me of nationality, language, religion. I shall try to fly by those nets”


For what to the soul are nets, “flung at it to hold it back from flight,” can become for the one who has found his own center the garment, freely chosen, of his further adventure.


~ Reflections on the Art of Living by Joseph Campbell pg 75


The following is me musing on flying past those nets. 



Two lotuses slid down a muddy pond bank, stopped right in front of me and bloomed shortly after I walked on water myself.  I was standing on a plank that spanned a pond. I lost my balance but wasn’t worried. I just stepped out onto the water knowing it’d hold me up, and so it did.  Thus I’m right in there with Jesus and the Buddha in that regard. Please don’t bow down and worship me though. That’d make me uncomfortable.


My old roommate and close friend Justin was there on the bank, which should’ve surprised me since he died a few years ago, but it didn’t when I saw him. He was alive and well as ever. I wouldn’t bow down and worship him either though. I don’t think he’d like it much either. 


I'm always reflecting on these and other things, like the times that I’ve stood at the base of the world tree. I even grafted a new branch onto it once—a new world tree to grow out of the old one. Not long ago I was swimming in the deep of the ocean and two serpentine fish coiled together like a caduceus came up from below and pushed me right out of the water. They didn’t have wings but still it was pretty cool. The caduceus is an old symbol that dates back many thousands of years B.C. It was on Hermes’ staff. The same symbol represented Ningishzida, “lord god of the tree” which has been found on Sumerian seals from 4,000 B.C.  He and other ever dying, ever resurrecting serpent gods that went by other names ended up becoming the snake in the Garden of Eden.  The goddess that dates back many thousands of years prior to that myth is hiding there in the Genesis tale too. She’s Eve. The Hebrew character for Hawwah (Eve) also means serpent.

These things fascinate the bejeezus out of me.  I imagine how much differently we’d view our dreams if there was no TV, iPhones, computers, or even contact with people or news from far off lands—no idea what the earth is like beyond a hundred miles from where we stand, let alone its place in the universe. That'd make it easier to believe that Eden was out there somewhere, or that the earth was center of all creation and hell was down below.


Of course now we know there was never such thing as a geographically located paradisiacal garden with a talking serpent, biological virgin birth or global flood in which one man saved a pair every species of animal on earth in an ark. I'll never forget my son stopping me mid-tale with that one one night.

"Dad, that's impossible" He said.

He was in the second or third grade at the time. He'd figured out I was Santa by then too.


I didn't try convincing him otherwise since I don't much believe it either, but I did say there's a lot that can't be explained in this life and sometimes stories help us make sense of it all. Unfortunately, nyth loses its power completely if read literally. Our 21st century knowledge of the universe and the origin of our species has shattered any chance of the sun ever having stopped, let alone over Gibeon! Or moon over Aijalon or so much else. For heaven's sakes! These things can no longer be read as factually true or historic, and yet here I sit typing this a bit hesitant to share as much where others can see it, because I know many people who insist it is literally true.


How is that possible? For hundreds of years now science has proven it's just not so.  Galileo was put under house arrest for his discoveries; Luther called Copernicus a Jackass for saying the Sun was the center of our Universe. Bruno and others were burned at the stake for saying less than I am  here. They’ve been vindicated of course. The church was wrong, yet still people insist on reading metaphor as history. 


Change is hard; pride screams don’t you dare follow your heart and go against what you were told. Even years after questioning it all it took damn near killing myself with alcohol to become willing to ask myself “Is it possible all the religious people I know are wrong?” and thus go my own way, accepting the truths I found and discarding what insulted my soul. Ironically enough doing just that, rejecting unquestioning dogma or "faith", led me to a more genuine faith in something, or capitol “S” Something, far more powerful and sublime than the notion of God I had before.  That “Something” can be read as “God” or any other metaphor, but either way it’s still metaphor because I don’t know what or even if it is, and neither do you. 


Which is as it should be. In the Kena Upanishad it is stated:

"He, who among us says he knows, does not know it. It is known to those who say they do not know it. It is not known to those who say they know it."


The "it" there is the "Something" of course. 

All I know is if you put a name to it and explain it to me then it’s far too insignificant and weak to hold my interest, let alone keep me sober.  Yet that which we can’t even mentally grasp, let alone explain, has at times captured me in awe.


I've seen in everything from a bug to a sunset

I've heard it in everything from a child’s laugh and a thunderclap.

And still, occasionally, it drops hints in my dreams.

It’s Something

Monday, March 22, 2021

Our cat in the window admiring my fence or... the turtle dove in the feeder perhaps? 


Most of the salvaged from demolished neighborhood house lumber is gone now. Actually repurposed is more accurate. A much smaller stack on the side of the house and few splinters in my hands is all that remains to be used. The rest has become part of a fence behind our house just like the kind I’ve wanted since forever and a day ago. Thanks to digital photo time stamps I know that construction began on Wednesday, March 3rd. It looked like this. 

Ever since first landing in this land I've always enjoyed seeing the roofed fences around older houses

I drove home by the one above after teaching that morning, took stock of my salvaged lumber and got to work. A plastic plank taken from a debris pile at the beach was perfect for termite-proof spacers between the fence and block wall. A quick trip to the nearby mom and pop construction supply shop supplied me with 1/2" bolts and a concrete bit to put in the old, louder'n a supernova impact drill that my in-laws' neighbor lady gave me after her husband who liked to watch me build shit passed away. 

 After measuring out enough 4x4 for posts I gathered all the shorter ones and cut off pieces and used them for the bottom plate, notching them together as I went



Initially I just planned to build a small section behind the open yard but ended up having enough to go twice as far by using ended 2x4s notched into shorter pieces of 4x4 on each end. I secured the end post to the bottom plate with lag bolts and a metal strap before slipping it down over the existing aluminum old fence "post". 



The building continued a few hours here and an hour there between classes whenever possible, with longer stretches on weekends. As fence obsession set in social media and news viewing came to a near standstill.
I can't help but notice the shift in consciousness every time I reduce my online time like that. The center of the world became my back yard. I hoped to complete the fence in time to see it adorned by soon to bloom cherry blossoms; checking the buds day after day made me more keenly aware of the Life bursting forth from the dead earth all around me. Then one night I spotted the horns of the bull rising overhead. 
Aha! 
The ever dying, ever resurrecting moon returning to life after three days dark--its influence both swims in our DNA and has left its mark on every religion there ever was or is. Things like that or the maple leaves sprouting from the dead stick of a stump leave me awestruck.  My struggles with religious belief all of it faded to naught.

What's belief compared to that which captures the soul in "Aha!"
That "Whoa!" That mystery that lies outside of all human speech and thought, 
That's IT. 
And so I carried on with my work
more aware of Nature carrying on with Hers, 
or God or with His, 
or Life with Its.
Metaphorical signposts return only now as I try to retell that which every human experiences yet none has ever netted with words. 
The closest I can come is to say that, once again,
 I was in that sacred space

and so it went...

As with other projects this too was interrupted by life on life's terms a few times. One noteworthy interruption was figuring out how to get the nice sofa our neighbor gave us up into our son’s room since he’s the one who wanted it. It wouldn’t fit up through the stairwell so improvise, build skids and break out the rope to pull it up through his bedroom window. I’d share video that my wife took but it’s peppered with some bad dad language when the sofa got hung up on the lower roof. Older boy earned his keep by keeping it from crashing to the ground long enough for me to free it. It’s in there now and some pieces of his old long ago homemade bed are now part of the fence too.


And I have digressed...


The aluminum fencing was supported by posts set two meters apart. They're cemented into the  block wall so I built them into the new fence for support. Since hollow I put various “I can use that for something” materials that I’d saved for a rainy day— PVC pipe, a metal pole or stout tree branch--  inside for added strength and notched the 4x4 posts to fit around them where possible.



The old 4x4s are sound but paint had turned to powder so they needed sanding then I coated with bug and mold resistant stain treatment. So goes building with recycled materials. 

I continued following the rough sketch of design in my mind and before I knew it a fence appeared. 


My biggest concern was making it sturdy enough to withstand the inevitable earthquakes and typhoons. An idea for doing just that appeared one night via the googles in a stock photo of wall reinforcement at Kanazawa castle, only 
on a much smaller scale of course, but still stiffened up the fence quite nicely. I ran a strap from the post down into a small form and cemented it in along with an L bracket for the small post. A quake hit last night and it held together.
So far so sturdy!


I went with a 5&12 pitch with 1x6 on the back and 1x4 on the house side where space is limited. The 2x2 ridge piece is nailed directly into the posts; the edges of the roof pieces are beveled for a tight fit. Someday I'll find a demolished house with copper roofing being torn off to cover the roof and make it match our house. 


Also due to limited house to fence walking space I bolted posts to the wall in and cemented in another metal strap and a sturdy piece of salvaged aluminum to make it typhoon resistant on the far end.

Then lo and behold my goal to complete it by the time our tree blossomed was achieved!

It was pure bliss start to finish, especially towards the end when deciding final design for the upper section. What's more is one neighbor has already offered to buy the lumber for fencing between our houses, but first will come the front of the house. 


Once getting the design set in the mind, such as repurposing pieces of old fence for sections I want sun to come through, making jigs to expedite the job, etc, it all was easy as pie.  Since the lovely missus gave the thumbs up to fencing the front as well I'll make up a lumber list and take it to the lumber guy up the way so it'll be even easier using newly special ordered materials.  

Towards the end we tried it out with the BBQ on dad dinner night to rid ourselves of the excess of scrap wood and it worked wonderfully for blocking out the neighbors. Also towards the end the mind started wandering off into nifty things to accent it with, such as a woodcut of Sengai's circle triangle square (Heaven Humans and Earth) and some new gold swords for the samurai stick people guardians. Oh yeah, and since out there to load up the bird feeder more frequently I made friends with a local turtle dove who kept me company while I worked and, as stated, met my cherry blossom tree blooming completion deadline.

Sengai Circle - Triangle - Square  -- Heaven - humans and earth

 




That's it. A salvaged, free lumber fenciful success! 

Saturday, February 27, 2021

No way!

It can't be real!!

 Seriously?

Yes, seriously.

Sigh...

It's real




Of all the times, and they’re seemingly countless, that I compared the pious “It’s God’s will” professing loyalists blind fealty to Trump to Israelites bowing down to the golden calf—not once... 

Not half a time. Not ever in a gazillion billion years ever did I begin to imagine they’d actually go out and freak’n do it! 


Silly me. I should’ve known better. 

Nice play 2021. Very nice play.


In light of the justification, the “It wasn’t Trump supporters. It was Antifa!!” disinformation since Trump supporters armed insurrection--their attempt to overthrow American Democracy—their storming of America’s most sacred institution and literally beating Capitol Police officers with poles on which the American flag (and others with Trump flags) flew--in light of pro-Trump rioters seeking out Democratically elected officials, including the Vice President in order to kill them—since coming to grips with the fact that even THAT wasn’t enough to get millions of my fellow Americans to question their support for Trump, this does not surprise me the least bit.  

That said, it’s too freak’n surreal and just….


Holy Shit!  


Okay that’s it.

 I done got myself laughing too hard to think straight again so hit publish and share this and carry on with my day.


Behold. News this morning.

So it’s come to this. 

Exodus 32 this is American Republicans.

American Republicans, meet Exodus 32




Saturday, February 20, 2021

欄間 and a sacred space

"Your sacred space is where you can find
 yourself over and over again."
~ Joseph Campbell

欄間 (Ranma) is a transom.
Transom: ˈtran(t)səm | 
    Noun 
• strengthening crossbar, in particular one set above a window or door
The definition doesn't do Japanese ones justice though.  They're downright works of art. Chances of finding one in an old Japanese home are good; in newer ones not so much since most don't even have 和室 (washitsu)--traditional Japanese style rooms with 床の間 (tokonoma) alcoves, or tatami mats. I never was much of the "most folks" variety though, so the washitsu was my favorite room of our house even without having a ranma in it. I love it even more since Life gifted me one unexpectedly a couple weeks ago. 

Hand carved and way older'n me I'm guessing, which is pretty damned old!  The term "ranma" entered my vocabulary when I built a room addition over the stairwell. I wanted one in there so bid on a few on Yahoo Auction only to end up building one myself out of old shoji doors salvaged from an adult student's parents' home. His folks had passed away so he was having the home demolished before selling the land. It's the damnedest thing about Japan, empty lots sell for more than ones with traditional, well-constructed older homes. My California carpenter heart breaks every time I see one being destroyed, but that's life so take advantage of it when and how you can, like this:


Above is what was left of the house around the corner last week.  Upon hearing it'd soon be demolished I walked over to peek inside and spied two beautiful transoms. 

I returned to ask about taking some the wood. A worker said sure, I said thanks, hauled some 2x4s home then returned the following nights for more. I figured they'd remove the transoms so let them be until finding the big crusher parked outside one night. It'd already torn into the house and the transoms were still there in place so that's it! They're mine! A few days afterwards I saw a nice interior door that I almost took crushed in the rubble. Sooner or later folks int this land've gotta learn throw away and make new is unsustainable. I'll continue modeling turn trash into treasure behavior till they do. 

I knew it'd fit since all rooms in Japan are measured in "jo". A jo is the size of one tatami mat--1.8 x .9 meters.  The measurement system dates back many hundreds of years. In every house the shoji door opening widths are the length of one, 1.5 or two tatami mats, give or take a smidgeon, which is exactly how much I had to cut off the end of the transom for it to fit perfectly. That would come later though, because when I held it up against the drab green wall.... 
Ugh! I've gotta change that. 

Thus my obsession with salvaging building materials became coupled with one for painting. Days of masking, painting and salvaging between and after teaching classes ensued. 
            


 When the weekend arrived rescuing long wished for landscaping stones was added to the list. Alas transporting those required some improvising.  My Australian neighbor friend offered to help but even two men couldn't lift, let alone carry, the big ones, so what to do?  The solution is pictured below. I now know how the pyramids were built thank you very much. The Egyptians built carts out of old kids' bicycle wheels and scrap wood. 
Oh yes, and used slave labor! 


I didn't know laying eyes on the transom would lead to a retreat into the  sacred space, but that's exactly what happened. Getting lost in a project like this is always a first class ticket to the Promise Land for me and, make no mistake, the Promise Land is not a geographical location. Far too much blood has been spilt over that wrongheaded reading of the religious metaphor. The Promised Land is a place in the soul, and there are as many paths to it as there are people in this world methinks. 
I know this because time and again Life puts stuff like this in my path to guide me there. This time it was a demolished house with a transom. I've no idea what it'll be next but am certain something will come along by and by. 


The house is gone now. No more nights of donning the headlamp and walking what's left of its halls, picking through rubble for wood, removing hinges, doorknobs and the like. I scored enough to keep me busy with projects for some time. There's a certain pleasure in getting cheap building materials too. I couldn't help but think of Thorough's used materials price list for his house in Walden. I pulled it from the shelf to read before succumbing to exhaustion one night. Ah yes, here it is. I'm in good company.


And so I tell this tale as I gaze up at the 欄間  overhead. These past couple of weeks have been a reminder that Life has my back to the degree that I stay true to myself and go with the pull of it. When I get too frustrated with the mess of a world out there lo and behold It leads me back to my sacred space.  

"After" shot of Dojo/classroom/tatami room with transom,
recently salvaged interior post turned new heavy bag beam and white walls! 

Newly salvaged stones joined the countless bucketloads of beach pebbles.
Rock garden wall is currently in imagining stage ;) 

 

About Me

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In late summer 1998 I moved from the place I grew up and spent most of my life (Central California) to a small town in Japan. I loved training in Shotkan and dreamt of training in Japan someday, I just didn't know someday would arrive when it did. I signed a one year English teaching contract, missed California life quite a bit but decided okay one more year then that's it. A few months into that second year contract I met a girl. You can probably guess the rest. The plan was return to California eventually but here I am still--still with that girl and now three awesome getting bigger every day kids to boot. Sometimes we pick the journey. Sometimes life does. I still enjoy doing martial arts. Still learning how to dad. Got a house, learned the word expat, etc. Oh yeah, and I love to write. Not that I know anything more about it than what I haven't forgotten that English teachers taught me. More that I find joy in doing it. Write for who or about what? The greatest American poet sums it up best: "One world is aware, and by the far the largest to me, and that is myself".